Life Is What You Make It

My wish for today: Thursday July 27th
Watch my show till about 10:30 then go to bed, get some rest and sleep in until about 10 or 11. Get up laze around, play on the computer for an hour or two then take a shower and get ready to go. Mom comes and picks me and my friends up and we drive to Pasa Robles and go and see our concert. Oh and of course i drive at least part of the way down there without my mother saying "SAMANTHA SLOW DOWN" too many times. Then watching the amazing concert, getting a shirt, if a miracle happened, or god was smiling on me, getting an autograph and a picture with Ne-Yo then driving back, sleeping on the car ride home, goin to bed then unfortunately going to work the next morning.

ThEn ReAliTY kicked in....lol

Reality: Actual Day: Thursday July 27th
Watched part of my show since my mother changed the channel on me and i missed like 1/4 of the show. Then sent to bed before i was ready to sleep. At the ungodly hour of 6 awoken to my mother trying to get me up: my first words "But the sun's not even up" so i tell her to let me sleep a little more, i fall semi back to sleep and finally awake to my mother calling my name over and over again...So i finally get my ass outta the nice warm, comfy bed and slowly get in the shower and struggle to find clothes to wear. So after i'm finally dressed w/o makeup (which i HATE doing) my mom's rushing me out the door. So i drive to work the whole way my mom is telling me "SLOW DOWN MARIO ANDRETTI". Anyway we make it to her office alive and semi-well. So i fall asleep on one of her chairs in her office and have to put my ipod on to drown out her annoying conversation with someone....So at 9am i get a phone call from Ali telling me that Judy has called in sick again...Why the hell she can't suck it up and finish her last three days will forever boggle me?!*^%$&* So i tell Ali that i have a doctor's appt. at 10:20 and then am leaving at 2...so she told me not to come in. Now poor thing is worryin a lot since everyone is gone and shes in charge so i felt bad for her, so i go to the hospital and go in like an hour early and am done with my ct scan by 9:30 so i grabbed my mom and drove home, changed, and went to work and now im here working, blah, but chattin with Ali which is fun! So overall my day is good and of course
NE-YO TONIGHT....YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!

Alright im really bored right now so here goes a random entry.....
So my ex txts me this morning asking me how im doin...wtf?? i've told him so many times not to talk to me and to stay out of my life but as always he disreguards my feelings to satisfy himself. he has got to be one of the most selfish people in this world. But anyway i asked him what was wrong, because the last time he txted me it was because he was upset that his new gf dumped him. Ha Fucker- like i give a shit about u (he fuckin dumped me). So he gives me the lame ass excuse that he had a bad dream and he was worrying and just checking that i was ok.. So i told him the truth and told him things were not fine and asked him, and what r u gonna do? He then gives me an answer about how he wants to help however he can. Thats a big load of BS- so i told him to quit being selfish and then talk to me when i would have liked to cuss him out...
now let me get this horrible image off my chest.
ok so i told michael that i had some pics that i was gonna throw away if he didnt come pick them up, so he agreed one day to come by and pick them up......ok so he gets to my house and wat is he wearing???? the most hideous bike spandex shorts, a little kids sized sweatshirt, and ugly spikey bike shoes..wen i saw him i wanted to shoot myself, like i didnt already regret having dated him for a year and half.. This just sealed the envelope that there was absolutely nothing left there.
So basically that was one of the biggest mistakes of my life and it will haunt me forever




ok so im totally and completely over work..thank god i'm off tomorrow

Hola peeps
or should i say Ali
since ur the only one who reads my shit
lol
wow i feel loved, jk
anyways i really dont have much to write about,..
typical
so im beyond bored currently................

SO.....
I went to the All American Rejects concert this sat night which was soooo awesome
we got our arms signed and our passes. then we actually met them and talked with them a little bit. During the concert we were literally as close as we could get, there was only a fence (and a guard) between us and them. They were good and it was an awesome concert.











So its official that im goin to the Ne-Yo concert and im sooo excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY

anywho more about that after the concert, so this sat i went to lunch w/ Ali May which was fun and yummy. Then the concert and then today i worked out at the Moto Gp which was easy and fun to watch the races. The place was packed there were about 50,000 ppl there. We stopped to ask someone for directions and guess who that guy was talkin to....................? Fabio, Fabio totally checked us out while the guy was giving us directions which was laughs and gave us a great story to tell our kids and grandkids, lol, jk jk!
So Laguna Seca was like over 100 degrees and roasting, but overall it was fricken awesome and a good, exhausting, busy weekend!
i hope everyone else's weekend was equally fabulous!

Here ya go Ali
this is the guy i was talkin about

Ok
so right now im extremely bored at work
but sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited!
on July 27th (a day i have off)
Ne-Yo, Mya and Cherish are coming to Pasa Robles
for the Mid State Fair
and its like only $30- sooo affordable
OMG i can't explain how happy i would b if i could go see Ne-Yo!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello
so this weekend my friend tori, her family and my mom and i went on a "Getaway" weekend. I'll spare u the drama and problems but it was overall a good trip. We stayed at the Fairmont in San Jose. While we were there, there was a technology convention and there were 1200 high school kids stayin at the same hotel. Boys were everywhere and they were nerdy and hilarious (some were very hott). So friday we went to dinner and then on saturday we went shopping for about 3-4 hours then layed out in the sun for at least 2 hours, and i got way tan! So that night we went to see Pirates of the Carribean Dead Man's Chest (#2) which was amazing and very funny. i think everyone should go see it! so then we had cocktails and wandered round the hotel, showed off our purchases then passed out...on sunday we went to breakfast w/friends n family then spent the day shopping at IKEA.....
then last night i was online wen someone i dont talk to anymore signed on and i thought "hmm i should delete him off my list"
about a min later he imes me w/the lame "hello,how r u doin?" mind u, this is a guy i used to like, and he liked me but moved on for some younger slut
so things r'nt so good between us
so i decided to make my life easier and let go of the anger i had towards him and just talk to him
so we talked
hes still w/his little slut but he's happy and bein nicer to me so i guess i don't really give a shit
but it's a relief to have the stress of avoidin him off my shoulders...the only sad part, was that he still makes my heart beat faster...which i hate to admit
write more later

hola everyone
im kinda tired about writing about negative things so i'll talk (semi) positively...
so i was off friday and sat because one set of my grandparents were here from Maui. we hung out at our house for about an hour or two then me and some friends went and saw Superman- it was pretty good, some unneccesary scenes and stuff but overall it was a good movie! So then on sat i helped a friend with a garage sale and made some money off it. then we drove to Big Sur for a wedding which was cute! and just a little reminder- having a song with ur lover is very cute but please unless u are a singer, please please do not sing it at ur wedding- its kinda painful for the guests...sorry its cute but NO
so anywho after the wedding we went home changed and then went out to dinner with: my mom, me, tori, val (her mom), Steve (her dad), my grandma, my grandpa, my grandma's sister, her husband, my friend carson, his mom and dad- so that was what....12 of us
so we had dinner while our parents drank quite a bit and then the three youngest ppl went and watched national treasure at tori's house which was fun
so sunday i walked all around carmel w/the grandparents and we watched 50 first dates...not too bad
on monday we went to a friends house and then dinner at Roy's
k movin on tuesday i worked which was horrid cause nima was the only one there and well he does not make it a fun atmosphere..but i did get to work with tori which was fun
so then tuesday night a bunch of my friends and i went out to the forest in the theater and watched my big fat greek wedding which is a good movie!
and now today is wed and im workin
not too bad since bruce bruce and ali are here
and hopefully tonite tori and i will go to the gym!!!
to get thin!!!!!!!!!
yay!

ok so im completely bored outta my mind so i thought i'd write here since i can't go on myspace
i'm addicted
oh well- so is everyone else
anywho
so my grandparents from hawaii r comin into town today which should b interesting since they are the Bickersons! My grandma is a neat freak (no joke) so for the past week my mom and i have desperately trying to get rid of everythin and clean up during every spare moment. so now the house is clean but not clean enough for my grandma but too bad for her
so they come today which should be....interesting is the only word that fits

i'll write more later
peace out!

ok so im sick of seein my last entry wen i go to my page so....im writing this
so on thursday we got robbed and my best friend (who i wasnt talking to) calls me and was worrying and checkin on me which was really sweet. i was at breakfast with a friend at the time and as soon as i told her she looked at me and said "there was a reason u weren't there, someone was watching out for you" which of course makes me thankful and i truly believe that my great grandparents were lookin out for me!
ok its busy
so ima go
peace out!

ok here's the short story of my bad day
went to the doctor to see wat was goin on with my nose
i got it pierced and 4 months later it got infected
so i have a lovely bump on my nose
and the doctor today told me that i would have it forever
which devestated me and i completely fell apart
i cried (which if u know me well, is something i NEVER do)
so today sucked ass
i'm sooo depressed and devestated
i just dont get why it happened to me, i only pierced it for fun and now im forever scarred by it, it sucks and it is soooooo unfair
:((

ok after work i was extremely drained
i tend to take other people's problems and worry about them as if they were my own
the stuff going on with michelle and alison def. made me worry and im still stressin it all

ok im really sick of talkin with friends and venting with them about other friends and then having them hold that against you. i feel like i can't talk to anyone because w/e i say is held against me. I'm sick of girls and their stupid shit and drama. I'm sick of almost everything right now. right now i wish i could just get plastered and pass out for days and days. that would be wonderful!
i can't wait till i can live on my own w/o my mom tellin me i can or can't go out
ok i'm sick of bitchin
i feel bad
so from now on i'm goin to TRY and make an effort not to talk shit/or vent about others
and to be nicer, the way i used to be
i wish i could get out and just be myself, i feel so restricted by the ppl here, it sucks trying to be someone that others want you to be
i would love to just be me and to be happy
if only wishes came true

Ha
i thought this was amusing

SCHOOL'S OUT FOR SUMMER!!!
thank god
today was my last day- i could not be happier
i'm soo happy that i'm finally a senior
i went to grad today and seeing my friends almost made me cry, its soo depressing that they are going to leave in about a month or so and i may never see them again, it depresses me :(
then that gets me thinkin
in 365 days i will be graduatiing high school and will be (hopefully) moving to the LA area and working there and going to school! ah college!
then there is the depressing issue that i won't see most of the people that i see on a daily basis anymore, my friends will be almost 300 miles away or more
ahhh
enough of the sad thoughts
well school is over, im a senior, thank god!
well i'm off to sober grad!
wooo hooo
ali i hope ur ok
please let me know how things r going
love and peace
im out!

Haley's Grad
i love her!
i miss our familia and the three angels- me, haley and ali!

A wonderful day at work
full of chatting, eating, jokes and playin with the camera
Today we all wore green if u didnt notice!

today was a good day for once
school was short and pretty easy for the most part
then i went to the mall with a friend and bought more than i should have but we had a good time so its all good
i miss my ali may
but we'll do lunch on friday so im happy
so tonight hopefully im goin to the gym which should b fun im hopin there will b lots of hott guys!!
that always makes the gym fun!!!
im bored so instead of studyin ima go take a shower!
ali may text me tomorrow
u looked great today! i loved the makeup! hottie!
ttyl
love ya
peace out!

My sinus infection is bad and i have no energy and today feels like sunday..which sucks because that means im sitting at home being bored. So i fought with a friend today which was exhausting as usual, but now things are fine. I'm soo drained. I'm soo sick of this town, the fact that there is nothing to do here and all the drama that comes with a small town. I seriously can not wait to get away from this place and to start out on a clean slate in a new exciting place. Too bad that isn't for another year. Oh well....

i just got back from la and an exhausting but fun week. Saturday after work i left for San Fran and we shopped there and had a good time. We shopped around Union Square and then went to Chinatown. Then came back to town on monday afternoon/eveningish. I spent Tuesday and Wednesday here and went to a movie both nights with some friends which was fun. Thursday i left with my mom and tori and her family to Valencia. We left at 5:30am and drove to la where we looked at colleges and were on the road for 11 hours. That night we went to Magic Mountain (the best part of the trip)and then dinner and finally passed out in a nice comfy bed. The next day we were at Magic Mountain for only a few hours then everyone pooped out and we left for Studio City to visit with my Uncle. It was really nice to see him and things were good just chillin and hanging with him. The next day which was today we split up which was a nice break and my uncle and mom took me to see my uncle's restaurant and then we went to UCLA which is absolutely HUGE but very nice. Then we got to relax for a little and then the lovely 6 hours in the car. I'm finally home and very happy to be back but very upset that my break is over and that school starts on Monday. UGh
goodnight